POSTED ON: Tuesday, May 31, 2011 @ 12:45 AM | 0 comments
One day , you're gonna miss me chasing you . You're gonna miss my annoyingness . You're gonna miss how much I cared about you . You're gonna miss ME .
; SOMETIMES ,
POSTED ON: Thursday, May 26, 2011 @ 8:22 PM | 0 comments
Sometimes , I really , really , really , REALLY wanna say to you what I really want to but i dont have a heart too . My heart makes me feel so bad even when I have the intention to say so . But this is what I really wanna say to you but i can't . Cause` Im scared at the same time that you'll NEVER talk to me ever again . And losing you , is the worst thing that will/has happen/happened in my life .
" No . Don't talk to me . You're just gonna bring back shit loads of bullshit and memories and you know what else you're gonna bring back ? FEELINGS . My fucking feelings for you . So stop talking to me before I do the unthinkable of possibly liking you again . "
; HEY HO ,
POSTED ON: @ 5:32 AM | 0 comments
HI . I LOVE YOU . AND I MISS YOU SO MUCH . DO YOU MISS ME ?
; It's my turn .
POSTED ON: Wednesday, May 25, 2011 @ 7:39 AM | 0 comments
I have been talking about you all the way and it's time for me to talk about myself . How I'm feeling . Firstly , I know you've got no idea at all what's going through my mind this past 3 months because` I've been pretending all the while . You won't know how many tears are fallen each night for you nor those endless hours that I waste thinking . I just want you to know that I've been fighting to let you go . Somedays I might make it through and then there's nights that never ends . I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'd come back to me but still I'd have to say is I had to do everything again . I think we're both useless . Well , I'm the one who's so stupid and put my hopes too high and he's stupid too cause` he doesnt realise what's infront of him .
I'm the kind of girl that's always lost . The one always with the fake smile and im the girl who seems to be really strong but I continue on breaking everyday . The kind of girl who's always right there and seem to have no problems of my own . The one who holds back tears when she's on the phone until` she's not . And im the girl who's in love with you won't care .
I told myself LOADS of times that it's enough of suffering and it's time to take a step forward and move on . It has been long and my heart isn't cured yet . I can't hurt myself like this . I can't let one guy destroy my life . I can't just stay there . I've gotta go . BUT I FAILED . I tried whatever I could to make my hard take a step forward but it seems that it didnt wanna move . I dont understand why . I really dont . What is god trying to say ? Or what is he trying to show me ? I dont know . And I wanna know soon . And I really hope something good's gonna happen . Something that the people around me would understand so they dont look down . Whenever that they is , I want it fast .
What's the most deepest question in my heart is " Why did you break up with me ? What's the reason ? " You aint telling me anything . You're covering it by saying that we're too perfect for each other and stuff . From the beginning , I already knew you didn't wanna tell me what I had done wrong . I mean , am I the one who's at fault ? okay maybe I am . I dont know ? Im clueless . That's why I made this blog . So you could read it and maybe you're could tell me slowly what I have done wrong . Only you could tell me that . And Muazzam too I guess .
Well , Im done for now . Im really tired . Been crying when i typed this all out . Goodnight . I'll always love you . (':
; I miss you . I really do , alot .
POSTED ON: @ 3:59 AM | 0 comments
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| This guy over here really looks hot . With his laugh and when he wore that purple watch of his . My favourite colour though . |
LOOK AT HOW CUTE YOU ARE ^^
Hehehe ! :3
Okay , that was Raihan before he cut his hair . Cute right ? Goodness shit , i'm melting (: HEHEEHEHE . I dont know , but alot of your friends said you seem happier and yes , I'm very happy to here that . But it sometimes makes me useless cause` it seems like I failed to make you happy .
Anws , I really miss you a lot . I really don't know what to say right now . Well , speechless . HMMM , alot of my friends says that you're getting funnier and you're always joking around more and I like the new you alot . (:
It seems like you've changed . You're getting more socialise I guess ? Hahahaha ! Every time you chat with me , it feels like you're the only thing I wanna talk to and no one else should disturb me . Because` i know , in the middle of the conversation , it may somehow make me smile , laugh , as well as , CRY . The crying sucks , i tell you .
I dont know why you're doing this to me . Till` now , i don't even know what I've done wrong and what is it that made you break up with me ? I'm really confused . The thought of this is killing me . It's been on my mind since that day we went to our separate ways . Although we did , I didn't stop there . I didn't " DON'T CARE " about you . I did . I still did care for you . Just like when you were mine .
You're always reminding me of the past . Every time I wanna forget you , it did work . Well , for just awhile . Cause` you'll come back appearing in my life and chatting with me and stuff . I dont even know why you do that . Appearing in my life , again and again , even when you own someone .
Well , I dont wanna say anything more . I'm really getting bored of crying everyday , thinking of you , thinking about OUR relationship . Well , i still think we're together . PFFFT . I have the worst feeling in the whole world . It sucks please to have this feeling . IT KILLS . Sometimes , i feel like ending this but i dont know how to and i keep asking myself why I did thought of waiting for moments those to happen again if I wanna give up . So , right now , i dont wanna give up . Even when i'm attached . Cause` even when im attached , my heart is always in yours .
; The Second Time I saw you after the break up .
POSTED ON: @ 1:04 AM | 0 comments
25 May 2011
Azliza and i were walking out of POD and we were talking about where we were going after that . I was facing the stairs while texting and someone was like " HEY ISN'T THAT RAIHAN ?! " I looked in front and I saw you . You were looking at me in a rather awkward way . I don't what you were thinking when you saw me . A bad impression ? A good one ? I seriously dont know and I wanna know . But I'll keep it to myself . Continuing on , when you walked away already , I went to Azliza and I went to hug her . Tears dropped from my cheeks and she really calmed me down . I'm okay if I would to see you from a far distance but that was really near and I can't bare looking at your face .
And that thing up there , made it by myself and it's special for you (: HEHE ! :3
I MISS YOU ALOT DEAR .
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POSTED ON: Tuesday, May 31, 2011 @ 12:45 AM | 0 comments
One day , you're gonna miss me chasing you . You're gonna miss my annoyingness . You're gonna miss how much I cared about you . You're gonna miss ME .
; SOMETIMES ,
POSTED ON: Thursday, May 26, 2011 @ 8:22 PM | 0 comments
Sometimes , I really , really , really , REALLY wanna say to you what I really want to but i dont have a heart too . My heart makes me feel so bad even when I have the intention to say so . But this is what I really wanna say to you but i can't . Cause` Im scared at the same time that you'll NEVER talk to me ever again . And losing you , is the worst thing that will/has happen/happened in my life .
" No . Don't talk to me . You're just gonna bring back shit loads of bullshit and memories and you know what else you're gonna bring back ? FEELINGS . My fucking feelings for you . So stop talking to me before I do the unthinkable of possibly liking you again . "
; HEY HO ,
POSTED ON: @ 5:32 AM | 0 comments
HI . I LOVE YOU . AND I MISS YOU SO MUCH . DO YOU MISS ME ?
; It's my turn .
POSTED ON: Wednesday, May 25, 2011 @ 7:39 AM | 0 comments
I have been talking about you all the way and it's time for me to talk about myself . How I'm feeling . Firstly , I know you've got no idea at all what's going through my mind this past 3 months because` I've been pretending all the while . You won't know how many tears are fallen each night for you nor those endless hours that I waste thinking . I just want you to know that I've been fighting to let you go . Somedays I might make it through and then there's nights that never ends . I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'd come back to me but still I'd have to say is I had to do everything again . I think we're both useless . Well , I'm the one who's so stupid and put my hopes too high and he's stupid too cause` he doesnt realise what's infront of him .
I'm the kind of girl that's always lost . The one always with the fake smile and im the girl who seems to be really strong but I continue on breaking everyday . The kind of girl who's always right there and seem to have no problems of my own . The one who holds back tears when she's on the phone until` she's not . And im the girl who's in love with you won't care .
I told myself LOADS of times that it's enough of suffering and it's time to take a step forward and move on . It has been long and my heart isn't cured yet . I can't hurt myself like this . I can't let one guy destroy my life . I can't just stay there . I've gotta go . BUT I FAILED . I tried whatever I could to make my hard take a step forward but it seems that it didnt wanna move . I dont understand why . I really dont . What is god trying to say ? Or what is he trying to show me ? I dont know . And I wanna know soon . And I really hope something good's gonna happen . Something that the people around me would understand so they dont look down . Whenever that they is , I want it fast .
What's the most deepest question in my heart is " Why did you break up with me ? What's the reason ? " You aint telling me anything . You're covering it by saying that we're too perfect for each other and stuff . From the beginning , I already knew you didn't wanna tell me what I had done wrong . I mean , am I the one who's at fault ? okay maybe I am . I dont know ? Im clueless . That's why I made this blog . So you could read it and maybe you're could tell me slowly what I have done wrong . Only you could tell me that . And Muazzam too I guess .
Well , Im done for now . Im really tired . Been crying when i typed this all out . Goodnight . I'll always love you . (':
; I miss you . I really do , alot .
POSTED ON: @ 3:59 AM | 0 comments
|
| This guy over here really looks hot . With his laugh and when he wore that purple watch of his . My favourite colour though . |
LOOK AT HOW CUTE YOU ARE ^^
Hehehe ! :3
Okay , that was Raihan before he cut his hair . Cute right ? Goodness shit , i'm melting (: HEHEEHEHE . I dont know , but alot of your friends said you seem happier and yes , I'm very happy to here that . But it sometimes makes me useless cause` it seems like I failed to make you happy .
Anws , I really miss you a lot . I really don't know what to say right now . Well , speechless . HMMM , alot of my friends says that you're getting funnier and you're always joking around more and I like the new you alot . (:
It seems like you've changed . You're getting more socialise I guess ? Hahahaha ! Every time you chat with me , it feels like you're the only thing I wanna talk to and no one else should disturb me . Because` i know , in the middle of the conversation , it may somehow make me smile , laugh , as well as , CRY . The crying sucks , i tell you .
I dont know why you're doing this to me . Till` now , i don't even know what I've done wrong and what is it that made you break up with me ? I'm really confused . The thought of this is killing me . It's been on my mind since that day we went to our separate ways . Although we did , I didn't stop there . I didn't " DON'T CARE " about you . I did . I still did care for you . Just like when you were mine .
You're always reminding me of the past . Every time I wanna forget you , it did work . Well , for just awhile . Cause` you'll come back appearing in my life and chatting with me and stuff . I dont even know why you do that . Appearing in my life , again and again , even when you own someone .
Well , I dont wanna say anything more . I'm really getting bored of crying everyday , thinking of you , thinking about OUR relationship . Well , i still think we're together . PFFFT . I have the worst feeling in the whole world . It sucks please to have this feeling . IT KILLS . Sometimes , i feel like ending this but i dont know how to and i keep asking myself why I did thought of waiting for moments those to happen again if I wanna give up . So , right now , i dont wanna give up . Even when i'm attached . Cause` even when im attached , my heart is always in yours .
; The Second Time I saw you after the break up .
POSTED ON: @ 1:04 AM | 0 comments
25 May 2011
Azliza and i were walking out of POD and we were talking about where we were going after that . I was facing the stairs while texting and someone was like " HEY ISN'T THAT RAIHAN ?! " I looked in front and I saw you . You were looking at me in a rather awkward way . I don't what you were thinking when you saw me . A bad impression ? A good one ? I seriously dont know and I wanna know . But I'll keep it to myself . Continuing on , when you walked away already , I went to Azliza and I went to hug her . Tears dropped from my cheeks and she really calmed me down . I'm okay if I would to see you from a far distance but that was really near and I can't bare looking at your face .
And that thing up there , made it by myself and it's special for you (: HEHE ! :3
I MISS YOU ALOT DEAR .
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