; When we're still friends .

POSTED ON: Saturday, April 9, 2011 @ 4:20 AM | 0 comments


Dear , remember those times ? We weren't together yet but we loved each other . I still do remember , when i broke up with Zulfiqah , you're the first one to know that I broke up with him and you we're there for me . You admit that you loved me since the first time you chat with me and it made me laugh while I was crying . Immediately after a breakup , someone whom I love could cheer me up and that was you . But in the end , there's no one whom I love made me laugh just like you did . We have been loving each otther for like 5 months but you stopped loving me for her .Ya`know how much I miss you . The real you . The real Raihan that I've known for the past 6 months . Baby , i hope you realise how much I love you and how much I want you back . Goodluck I wish you and her sayaaang (':

; One of our conversations .

POSTED ON: Friday, April 8, 2011 @ 9:24 PM | 0 comments

Me : Herro . Last loong Haaaaan(:
Him : Heyy , thanks! You too last long!
Me : Welcomeeeee (; haha thaanks too 


2 days later 


Him : You break up with him ? o.0
Me : Uh yea ? Err , why ? 
Him : Just asking anw cheer up :-)
Me : ohh thaaaanks (: Im the one who wanted to break up . so , yeaaa .
Him : Oooooh , jangan nanges 
Me : Harieh2 pon nangees
Him : Its okaaay , i am here.
Me : You don't understand me . I'm so fucked up with life right now and I just wish I could kill myself !
Him : Yeaaaah, don't do this to yourself.
Me : Naah , dont care about me . So how's you and her ?
Him : Ouh , me and her ? Its going very well :-)
Me : Ooh awesomeeee ;D
Him : You are happy for aren't you ?
Me : Yeaaa happy for yaa' (;
Him : Thanks! ;-)
Me : LOL . My pleasureeeeee (:

And after that , you added me back as your friend in Facebook . And before i accepted your friend request , I made sure that I deleted every single sad posts so you won't know how much hurt I still was . I don't think you even realise how much pain my heart was when you said you and her - you guys we're doing so well . I was happy for you , yes i was . But at the same time , I felt so sad . I cried all night long yesterday night . Knowing that all of this had happened , I feel like giving up . But it's VERY hard . Haish . I love you so much dear D': ♥

; I loveee youuu no matter whaaat :'D

POSTED ON: @ 1:37 AM | 0 comments


Minutes slowly go by as the precious thoughts of us being together once again remain in my mind . And it's still fresh dear . The comforting images of you takes hold of my soul and through my eyes I visualize the time I had with you before you had to let go of me for her ; taking a part of me with you . I realise I need you so much because I love you . There's no other person I'd rather be with , no other person I'd rather be loved by , no other person I'd rather love or miss than you ! 

Baby i miss you so much . Please come back to me )':
It was the last day we met when we took this picture . And you hugged me for so long . And i wonder why . Well , now i do know why . Cause` it was gonna be my last hug with you . 

That day , my mum didn't allow me to go out . I told you I could only go down . You told me you're gonna meet someone and I was so blur and I asked who . You said you wanted to meet me . You went all the way from your house to mine just to spend time with me . My brothers were there when we were slacking together . My small brother said that I was lucky to have someone like you because` you're willing to anything just for me . And i totally agree on that . Remember when you hugged me and you didn't let go ? We were both so silent . I almost cried cause` I didn't know how to describe how much I LOVE YOU . And in my heart , i kept saying , " I love you sayang . I will never let go of you . And i hope you have the same feeling . " 

But in the end , knowing you didn't want me anymore sucks to the fucking core . I cried and cried . And still , after 3 weeks of the breakup , I'm still sad . I still cry every night without fail before going to sleep . If just you had the chance to understand me , and accept me back in your life and love me just like you did before , it would be the happiest thing in my life (': 

; Raihaaaaaaaaaaan (:

POSTED ON: @ 1:33 AM | 0 comments

Baby , without you , my vision is clouded by tears in my eyes . And I used to think that visions of us were my only paradise . You have your girl by your side . Just looking at you two , makes tears flow from my eyes . You could only see me as a friend , or maybe , you hate me . But how can that be , because our road to friendship hasn’t even begun . I’ll just have to admit to myself that I’m not your type . Well , I've got no choice but to think it that way . I know that you have a girlfriend , so me loving you isn’t alright . Many things with guys have gone wrong in the past . All those relationships that I thought were gonna last didnt . I sometimes find myself daydreaming about your touch . And you know I love you , but not this much. Will my broken heart be healed soon ? I dont think so . I feel overwhelmed in sadness and have become so consumed that I don’t know how to say I wanna be with you . I don’t know how to start , but as each day goes by I wish you would open your heart and give a space to fit in . Sometimes I wish I could dream forever but then that way we’ll always be together. Unfortunately though , I wake up and I hate how reality always seems to suck . At school it’ll be just another day , Another day that I’ll try to suppress my feelings for you away . And Im lucky you're not in the same school with me . Cause` I'll end up crying every time I see your face .



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